Aysel cannot get away from the crimes her father committed, the one that landed him in prison and her at the bottom of the social ladder for the entirety of high school. He killed a young rising local sports hero. Now she must live with her mom and her step family, who all act like she is non-existent. Lately, she has been checking out a suicide website, and not the kind that helps you when you are feeling down, but the kind that encourages the sad act. Through this site, she meets up with Roman, a high school boy from a neighboring town, that has a date picked out, but is looking for a partner, one who won’t flake out.
I listened to the audiobook, and found that the author had a very Daria-esque tone to her voice. Partly sarcastic, partly monotone, but in a way that worked for the feel of this book. Unfortunately, I just didn’t love this book. I didn’t feel like there was any chemistry between Roman and Aysel. I get that being a teenager is hard, I do remember that far back, but its like they are both completely blind. Then again, maybe that is the whole point. But in a world where lots of people love them, for some strange reason it takes the sarcastic musings of complete strangers in order to make their lives bearable. I guess I can see the big picture, but it doesn’t mean I have to enjoy it. I can, however, see the value in this book. The availability of it to a hurting teen, a book that is relate-able to a dire situation, a book with sadness and hope has its place in the YA literature world.